hm....

was talking to her till abt 1am yesterdae....

she told me everything le.....

she's wurried.....that things will screw up again.....

coz she's really devoted to her bf.....(am i supposed to be happy? haha.)

to the extend that she forgets her friends....(hm....sounds so familiar....)

the last time she had a bf....everything screwed up......

that's y she was so afraid this time....

funny thing is.....

i'm like that too....haha....

so....told her the solution...that i'm sure will work out.....

coz i dun wanna spoil everything too....



"next time if we dun hv time for each other, i go out together with ur friends lorhs...."

wadx more....lady's stuff isn't smth i dunno wad...hahaha...

i'm ok with going out with her friends...so..oh well....hee...

"and wadx more...u so chatty...i'm sure we can talk everydae one right..."

yeap yeap....i would really want to talk to her everydae oso.....she's ok with that...

"and for maebi our solo time...maebi once a wk can le la.."

sometimes...it's better for her not to see me that often...she'll miss me..i hope...lol.

"as for ur studies...i will give you tuition de...u state the time and place ba"

i'm still a neerd....i think...am i? or aren't i? i dunno.....

yeah....this should do....i hope....

it's really good for both of us....and i think we'll...be....sticky..lol.

she's sticky...kinda.

i'm sticky...

but...there's still one thing left.....

Aphenphosmphobia.

big word eh?

fear of being touched....

she looked super funny at west mall that time...

when i got close to her....she gave this...very scared and shocked look.....

and when i hugged her, i can feel that she's scared....

cause of it?

her ex.....

he would alwaes hug her real tight...till she has no space to breathe....sorta suffocation....

and this would happen anytime.....as in...whenever he wants to hug, he'll hug.

that's y she's so afraid of ppl being close to her or hugging her.

this is the prob i think it'll be tough....

it's not smth to be solved within daes.....

i dunno how long it'll take...

but i'll try to overcome this fear with her...

since it only developed recently,

hope it'll end fast too..

love her lots....

will want to bear everything with her.

"i dun wan to drag other ppl's happiness down..."

"u mean me?"

"ya..."

"joyce...u ARE my happiness."

^^