:P

hm....suppose.....

things are going....normal..?

pighead wants to stay as friends....for now...

i'm ok with tt.....

oh well...i dunno.......she said tt she wants to stay this wae...

i hope the words "for now" applies too...

sighs....

but yeah.....

her pc was down.....

been at least not talking to her for a wk....

called me once...on sat.....

she's still as usual.....

haha....

oh well....i guess this is it.....

normal?

i dunno.....

sometimes...i'm thinking if i'm paranoid...

thinking lots of stuff.......

thinking too far....

thinking too much....

thinking pessimistically....

lots of thinking eh?

haha.....

pighead.....i'm a pighead......

like wad james said..,"sam, u r a dickhead"

haha....i guess it's kinda right.....

pighead...dickhead....no head.....got head no brain...haha....

remembered wad wen yao said....

"ni you tou mei nao...you nao zhang cao"
(u have a head but without brains, if there's brains there must be grass growing on it.)

haha....sometimes....i find it hard not to laugh at myself....

i'm just acting silly...just to get ppl attention....

attention....haha....

did i lack parent's attention?

i dunno.......

created alot of troubles since young...just to have others look at me...

but when others look me....it's alwaes tt cold...heartless....merciless look...

since when ppl gave me a normal look......

then...i grew up.....

gave too many troubles....till trouble found me....(sec 4 esp...haha...sighs)

knocked out......then....now?

acting like a goofhead....making others smile....

smiles even when being scolded....

does stuff to make ppl smile....

but alwaes feel hurt.....

coz......

after tt smile....ppl would just turn their heads awae.....

sighs....

i lack attention?

i dunno...haha....

perhaps...this is y i want a gf so much.....

so tt she can giv me attention....

so..i'm screwed...haha..

yay...i'm a despo~~~(sighs...since pri sch?)

haha.....

when ppl asked,"sam, how many ppl have u actually fell for?"

i would alwaes give a bored up look...haha..

sighs....i fall for ppl too easily?

it's like...ppl would just give me a smile....

and i would fall for her....haha..

stupid right?

i'd just sae i dunno...hais...

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sighs...pighead...i miss u.