blahness

hais...sianzation...seriously..wondering y am i hving so many probs...suppose this is my life ba....wad can i do....hving such an enviroment to live in...where the society turns me down, and i dun hv someone to trust and depend on...seriously...it's tough....wanna break down le.......

break down.....the song from BeForU....it's nice....sighs.....perhaps i still can hold out for some time ba....but i suppose....it's either i die out or someone comes in and helps me.....it's really taking toll on me le....hais...i can go crazy anytime ba....sighs...THIS SUCKS. i hate this type of feeling....

thanks to darryl..at least i know now that when i wanna move out of the hse..i have a place to stay.....man..it's really great to know him....ok la...maebi with him arnd i'll be a lil depressed coz my mthly allowance is like abt 2-3% of his pay la....(he's really a rich lad...wad more, 1st class honours BsC.)....but he's really a nice guy....man...he rock.

looking up into a blank ceiling, just suppose my life now is really blank...and i'm diffusing...someone...anyone?...hais. someone.......