......

sighs...

seriously..

i made life difficult again...

this time....for myself...and her....

i'm like thinking...

y do i like to screw things up that much??...

after i disappeared....or rather....i went awae....

i didn't have the courage to tell her that i wanted to avoid her all the wae.....

so i didn't go to hillgrove.....

i blocked her in msn...i was having too much pain...

but....i was being so selfish....

she was in misery too......

"u made me happy"

this words....let me felt...the pain in her....she....was really hurt by my disappearance.....

i really felt...so......so.......so.......sad.

my heart was bleeding.....really lots.

i did really made a wrong move....to leave her.....

i thought i could let her be better...since she wanted to solve stuffs alone.....

but i was wrong....

"love is about caring for ppl at the sake of oneself"

"u manage to do the part on the sake of oneself....but u flunked at the caring part"

sighs....i...really suck.

i had a sorta quarrel with her too...

i'd just dunno.....

i dun wanna hurt her....but in the end....i hurt her the most....

this feeling really sucks.....

i hate myself.......

i HATE MYSELF!

i need you...joyce.

i dun wanna leave u anymore....

let me be around u.....

piglet...

i dun wan u to get hurt le.....

i'm sorry....for hurting u that much....

i dun wanna see u be in this state le...

it really hurts to see u like this...

i'm sorry......it's my fault....