sighs

sighs......

lethargy....

boredom....

i'm tired.

just dunno y..

things have to be like that...

they came....

they stopped....by.

and off they go....

everything's like that.....

having most of the time myself...empty....sighs.

sounds so pessimistic...haha..

i guess i'm in sort of a critical situation now....

might die off....

haha....

oh well....

wouldn't it be better...

think it on the bright side yeah?

i guess i have to do smth about it...

people...if i die....

dun miss me yeah?

if there's anyone reading this blog that is...

haha.....

sounds so autistic...

sighs.

it still hurts....

i guess i did really put my feelings into it....

at first...i knew that things would turn out this wae....

so i din really expect much....din really feel much too...

but in the end....

i did really put my feelings in....

things became much better.....

but...in the end....it was gone....

still gone....

everything's gone...

blank...

void....

leaving a scar.

haha.

it hurts.

it's bleeding.

i wonder...

how much more blood can i bleed...

perhaps i'll put a stop to it.

haha...

some people say that i'm stupid...

some sae tt i'm silly...

some say that i'm hopeless..

some say that i've changed...

i guess...i'm not that same old me last time anymore....

haha.

how i wished that it was back...

at least my life was happier.

how i wish....

i din know what was love...

how i wish...

i din know jialin...

it's her bdae anywae...

22/7/88...

haha...

dunno y i still remember it.

how i wished..

i was dead in my mum's womb.