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guess....is life called normal this wae?

project's getting confirmation later....

quite happy...but have to work solo.....

this means hell...

but at least i'll be busy....

better than dwelling into the past.

the past...

left me stranded in the present....

sighs.

still can't really get used to it...

but yeah....it's getting better....

ultimate lonliness....

well...perhaps not that much...

but i guess it's something no one wanna experience....

no family...

no friends...

no love...

no feelings...

nothing...i guess.

smth tells me that there's this flow of blood in my heart....

but it isn't going anywhere..

sighs...

the love of god...

sorry..i can't really accept it...

coz i know...the love of god is there...

but it's not going to help much.

god can give me partial support....but not total.

for he asked me to depend on myself....

i won't be able to depend on him that much.

total support...sighs.